when the world seems against you, scream!

I think the title says it all. lol  I awoke this am and thougth it would just be another day.  I went to call pain management for my march refills and find my phone is dead.  What????????  Good thing I have a cell phone.  Ok that chore is done.  Now I go to feed the cats and dog.  No dog downstairs.  Hanna is still a puppy and one who likes to chew (clothes, shoes, lipstick, etc).  I go upstairs feeling tired and "what is that dog up to now!".  The dog had ripped the bedsheet!  "Are you kidding?  Ok who hates me today" runs through my head.

I was so anxious that I feed the cats the dry food instead of the canned and almost forgot to take my medication.  All this happens before my coffee!  I feel like "this is too much without caffine"

At lunch time I leave the house to go to yoga class.  I stop at the grocery store to pick up a few things.  I thought I left myself enough time.  Murphy's law will say that if you are having bad day, you will be late for class!  Sure enough I was late.  this is the first time for this class and they had started  when I raced in without even having taken my coat for.

At this point I am thinking "I REALLY need this class!"  It really did help me regroup and calm my mind. 

At least the day has improved.  My hubby came home early and fixed the phone.  I was cleaning the living room vent yesterday (which has not been cleaned like my house in too long).  The vent in down by the basedboard and the phone jack for the computor connection is next to it.  I must have bumped the jack.  Duhhh.

I wish I could remember to be patient and trust that the universe straightens everything in the right time.  :)

Gentle hugs to my 2 loyal followers.

overdoing things costs big energy.

I am exhausted today.  Every muscle in my body aches, burns or is stiff.  I have been trying to please too many people and overdid the week.  I know that I have to give myself some down time or I crash emotionally and physically.  I don't always listen to that little voice that says "Hey slow down!"

Now I am sitting on the bed exhausted and sore wanting to kick myself for not listening.  I think what really bothers me is these times reminder me of my limitations.  Ones that have come in the last 10 years.  It may seem awhile  and you think I would be used to it, but when you have been active it is something you never quite get used to.

The pain and the feeling of failing comes from the overdoing it.  I struggle everytime to keep my emotions from spinning out of controp when this happens.  It is depressing to see others seeming to function without any trouble.  The everyday things I used to do so effortlessly, not requires more energy.  that extra energy takes away from the reserve I have to do other things.  Days like today feel like I do not even have the energy to manage basic daily activities.

Right now I need to lay down and shut out the world for a while.  That is my time for my brain to recoup its sanity.  Later.