I am exhausted today. Every muscle in my body aches, burns or is stiff. I have been trying to please too many people and overdid the week. I know that I have to give myself some down time or I crash emotionally and physically. I don't always listen to that little voice that says "Hey slow down!"
Now I am sitting on the bed exhausted and sore wanting to kick myself for not listening. I think what really bothers me is these times reminder me of my limitations. Ones that have come in the last 10 years. It may seem awhile and you think I would be used to it, but when you have been active it is something you never quite get used to.
The pain and the feeling of failing comes from the overdoing it. I struggle everytime to keep my emotions from spinning out of controp when this happens. It is depressing to see others seeming to function without any trouble. The everyday things I used to do so effortlessly, not requires more energy. that extra energy takes away from the reserve I have to do other things. Days like today feel like I do not even have the energy to manage basic daily activities.
Right now I need to lay down and shut out the world for a while. That is my time for my brain to recoup its sanity. Later.
Life's experiences are woven over time in our web. Have you ever noticed the perfect balance of the spider's web? A lesson is how to balance dagaz.
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